Absolut_Ice

2008-12-07T14:53:00.002+08:00

The town full with lights and sparkles
Looking out for you in the crowd
Will I see you again?

imu

2008-12-04T04:47:00.002+08:00

So many spaces I can't fill
But God knows how hard I try
More than what's in this two hands

Everything's gonna be alright

2008-11-25T23:30:00.001+08:00

God bless me - Please do not let me be MISUNDERSTOOD

2008-11-24T23:06:00.002+08:00

Setting sail through troubled waters
The path is gloomy with dark clouds looming
The sombre face of the sailor falls in dismay
His listless eyes speak of his dejected spirits

misses - fd

2008-11-15T22:58:00.000+08:00

Darkness prevails in the early hours
Yet a life was touched by one light
One small candle can change the world
By choosing to burn bright

2008-11-02T05:38:00.001+08:00

2008-10-26T23:46:00.002+08:00

Thoughts of you
Caress my troubled mind
I can't read you still
I'm waiting for something
If only just a glimpse
If you only knew

Unspoken words surround my life

2008-10-05T19:42:00.002+08:00

The island seems so close to touch
And yet so far from my reach
The sought after serenity
Is so far gone

touched by another soul

2008-09-21T10:30:00.007+08:00

It is like a never-ending battle
Walking my path in a state of disarray
Finding no light and being forsaken all the way

Even if tears fall endlessly in my eyes
Its like a river that will never run dry
I can never deny the sadness in my smile
Only to drown myself with flaming lamborghini

A Heartfelt Thank You from the Bottom of my Heart to you guys :)

When can I see the *4 of you again
*hope u al are doin fine in ur IPP, tc :)

2008-09-05T23:21:00.000+08:00

sometimes the snail is facing the wrong way

2008-08-29T01:18:00.002+08:00

I reach but find thin air
Nothing left to grasp
Drained of all solidity
Only the vacuum of the soul

The cut runs deep

2008-08-28T08:20:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday, Audrey!

2008-08-26T00:36:00.002+08:00

To sit and wait for that we crave
Is such a mixed emotion
It steals your thoughts and plagues your mind
Stronger than any potion
For if you view your glass half-full
It means you’re not prepared
For the pain that disappointments bring

life's design

2008-08-23T08:20:00.001+08:00

ooz

2008-06-17T18:57:00.003+08:00

Will things ever get better?
This hurt that I feel
While my heart grieves
It bores deep into my heart
And pierces my soul

Can you give me a chance to relive the good old days - cherished friendship

2008-06-15T23:18:00.001+08:00

three crosses on top of a mouth

2008-06-12T22:23:00.002+08:00

Walking in the opposite direction
I wanted to wave to both of you
But I just could not muster enough courage

I miss the old times

2008-06-11T20:58:00.002+08:00

It's a feeling that will keep you awake at night
All that is missing is a touch or a voice
But every pieces of yesterday seems to remain
Which stirs up those fond memories

I do not want to say goodbye to what I held so dear - do not let it end

2008-06-08T22:22:00.001+08:00

Hold on to the nights

2008-06-07T16:23:00.001+08:00

surreal dreams - apprehensive of losing them

2008-06-05T22:17:00.002+08:00

In the darkness of the night
When all is quiet and still
Feeling of my heart pounding
Incessant throbbing in my head
Sensing something was terribly wrong
Stuck in the moment
Not knowing what to do
Did I make things worse?

I pray - can't stop wishing I could put it back together

2008-06-04T00:09:00.002+08:00

The emotional baggage
I have been carrying
Is weighing me down
They are so near yet so far

Bless me
Whatever it takes to mend the rift

2008-05-31T22:21:00.001+08:00

Faint sobs echoing
Off the cold walls

To my dearest - May you rest in peace

2008-05-28T22:00:00.001+08:00

What a difference the simple greeting made...

2008-05-25T18:06:00.001+08:00

on my knees

2008-05-19T19:22:00.000+08:00

Reality is cruel

2008-05-07T14:29:00.003+08:00

I wanted so much to work with the '4' for all, if not, for most
I wanted so badly that I didn't dare to ask on mon
For fear of screwing it up
I decided to ask on wed
But...

Mon (too early) + Wed (too late) = shattered dreams

From the bottom of my heart
'4' - PRICELESS GEMS
U all mean the world to me

2008-04-30T15:55:00.004+08:00

Guess I'm too late
The news hit me
Like a bolt of lightning
Taking it all in
It's tearing me apart
Feeling down and out
The only way out for me...

Bye NYP

2008-04-29T18:28:00.003+08:00

OUTCASTE

2008-04-27T22:21:00.002+08:00

The inevitable cycle is here again
I can't help fearing
And become a wreck

bless me

2008-04-22T23:17:00.002+08:00

Locked by dilemma
Confused in the agony of my fears
Looking for a remedy to chase it away

My head is seriously spinning!

2008-04-14T23:46:00.002+08:00

The grief once again seeping through the walls
As I silently whisper those words
From dusk to dawn

Like a broken compass on a shelf

2008-04-11T22:45:00.002+08:00

Tumbleweed moving along the ground
Stirring dust as it spins around
And the unknown seem to dwell

Flooded with negative thoughts

2008-04-09T22:58:00.002+08:00

A light went out
That should have stayed on
How the sparkle had faded

Light of the mind

2008-03-31T23:38:00.002+08:00

1 drop
2 drops
3 drops
And counting
Dried out by now

What hurts worse

2008-03-30T21:25:00.002+08:00

On the bumpy road of life
It all begins with believing
The endless praying

Is it meant to be this way?

2008-03-27T23:58:00.003+08:00

Misery loves company
And it has found me

Misery Lane

2008-03-23T23:32:00.002+08:00

Seeing the flowers fade and die
Witnessing the stars cascade and fall
Too many too soon

Not a day goes by...

2008-03-12T23:52:00.003+08:00

As I live each day
Just feeling like I don't belong
And wondering why everything feels so wrong

Life is a stranger

2008-03-10T23:01:00.002+08:00

Pick up the paper
And set off the trigger
Off it goes
The music starts to play
Bang!

Yea - LESS than 20

2008-03-03T15:25:00.003+08:00

Burning in the rain
And freezing in the sun
When every thing around me screamed No!

Would it make it any easier?

2008-02-28T23:38:00.001+08:00

I fear blindness by a flash of light
It isn’t true, not true as it seems and appears
I think something is there

All is quiet

2008-02-24T15:29:00.002+08:00

Give into the chains that surround me
Binding my movement and restricting
Down, down, shattering like broken glass

Made a mess of everything

2008-02-23T03:09:00.002+08:00

Stretching out in dire need
Came a voice of disbelief
It could have very well gone the other way

Broken down, used, forgotten and discarded

2008-02-18T17:18:00.002+08:00

Every step seems a step in the wrong direction
With every heavy breath
Everything is in vain

Predestined

2008-02-14T01:27:00.002+08:00

Anxiety rises when you worry
Instincts do take over
Until you know

Don't know much...

2008-02-10T15:20:00.000+08:00

introspective

2008-02-05T23:12:00.000+08:00

Around in circles this mood sends my mind
Trampling forward through awkward time
All that remains is anxiety
And the constant clock-staring wish

The wait isn't over just yet

2008-01-14T21:25:00.000+08:00

It's not much different from being dead
When it's time to go...

2008-01-06T18:35:00.000+08:00

It's an emotional outburst
Followed by a storm of despair
With fog clouds of woe
In my emotional storm

BURDEN to others & feeling utterly USELESS

2008-01-01T22:01:00.001+08:00

QUIT

2007-12-31T14:22:00.000+08:00

Yes, I am an IDIOT
Just good at screwing things up
Better off dead

All messed up

2007-12-29T21:25:00.000+08:00

It's getting to me
Sets in and never lifts
Everything in me is wearing thin

Fallen

2007-12-16T21:09:00.000+08:00

Gazing at the ceiling
Sinking into the depths
At an all time low

Saddened

2007-12-09T22:24:00.000+08:00

The sky weeps
Silent at first
But loud at the end
Nothing more
Nothing less

Still it remain unchanged, not gone

2007-12-06T23:14:00.000+08:00

Inconsolable

2007-12-03T23:18:00.000+08:00

The thoughts running through my head every night
If only...
Would things have been different?
I did not ask for this
Screaming within
The pain is there
It is so real
I thought I can put things right
But I went on to find out that it was short-lived

Pick me up and put me down

2007-12-02T18:23:00.000+08:00

I'm missing everything that used to be
And day to day
It never leave my mind

Left grasping thin air

2007-11-27T22:06:00.000+08:00

I am simply angry with myself
For saying the wrong thing at the wrong time

That spoils it all

2007-11-22T23:47:00.001+08:00

Life can be cruel
It's all slipping away

Crushed to bits

2007-11-19T23:15:00.000+08:00

Life took things away
But I never left them

Its all that matters

2007-11-15T23:53:00.000+08:00

Reality has set in
Things are not what it seems

What HURTS the most

2007-11-13T22:42:00.000+08:00

What really matters
Are the phrases inside of each letter
It means a lot when you put your feelings into it

Go the distance

2007-11-09T23:01:00.000+08:00

I think of all that's changed
Of what's to come and times gone past

I do not want to lose it all

2007-10-31T22:22:00.000+08:00

A line so fine
It used to not exist
What a difference it makes

Reminiscence of the past

2007-10-28T22:34:00.000+08:00

Just when I thought it changed
Things are still the same

I want to believe in it again

2007-10-25T22:53:00.000+08:00

Heartrending pain is what its all about

2007-10-24T22:31:00.000+08:00

It comes from within
There is no other emotion
That can encapsulate the soul
When it comes along
It seems that there are so much to say

It never cease to exist

2007-10-20T21:06:00.000+08:00

There's so much on my mind
Filled with regrets & sorrow
I can't get over it
Its killing me inside
And its tearing me apart

Arghhh! Why must this happen to me?

2007-10-20T14:49:00.000+08:00

I HATE myself for being an IDIOT for being so PROBLEMATIC

I have let my friends down
Been giving them too much problems
I am not good enough to be their friend
Perhaps I should disappear from their lives

2007-10-20T08:37:00.000+08:00

No matter how hard I tried
It was just never enough
Seems like everything I wanted
Is always out of reach
I soon realised I was weak
My soul cries out
I am a failure at everything

Unwanted

2007-10-19T23:39:00.000+08:00

Thinking of that moment in time
Blink and I'll miss it
Nothing ever stop me from thinking
Or ever from reminding
The mind flickers once
And fades to black
Can't help feeling that I'm nothing but trouble
Guess I'm not worthy of anything
I should just shut myself out from the world

Constant flashbacks of traumatic events

2007-10-18T21:14:00.000+08:00

It never rains but it pours...

2007-10-15T22:46:00.000+08:00

In one blink of an eye
Everything fades to black
My soul sinking into a river of sadness
Weighed down by all my pain
Swirling around in the dark cold water

When it all goes wrong

2007-10-14T22:43:00.000+08:00

I don't know what to do
I don't know if I'll get through
It seems like the end is near

I can't take it anymore

2007-10-09T22:51:00.000+08:00

I stand almost desolated
Sad on the outcome of my dreams
I hope they are not devastated
For they no longer flow like a stream

The fear is consuming me

2007-10-04T22:47:00.000+08:00

There is a pain in my heart
That bring tears in my eyes
Where it hurts...

Things will never be the same again

2007-09-30T22:52:00.000+08:00

Late into the night
Deep into the shadows
Across from tired sighs
A memory lingers
A face remains

There is no right time

2007-09-26T23:41:00.000+08:00

Just listening to what is said
It is really emotionally draining
Don't know what's left sustaining me
I'm losing my strength and caving in
Everything in me is wearing thin
I stare blankly straight ahead
Feeling like I'm almost dead

Once again I am torn into pieces...

2007-09-26T00:12:00.000+08:00

Behind the eyes of a troubled soul
There lies the secrets of truth
Thinking of something ...... but not knowing

2007-09-20T17:43:00.000+08:00

I really appreciate everything you all have done yesterday
Thanks a lot for everything!
You guys made my day =)

Will my wish come true?

2007-09-18T21:13:00.000+08:00

The words are like knives
Cutting deep into my heart
They leave me bleeding

Do you know that your presence tomorrow means a lot to me? =(
Heartbroken

2007-09-12T22:17:00.000+08:00

The stars were flashing their warning lights
The symphony of sirens
So what’s more?
What have I to make me believe?

Disturbed

2007-09-11T23:58:00.000+08:00

Exploring and reflecting within
For the solution to my inner turmoil
I lament over my inner thoughts

2007-09-10T22:26:00.000+08:00

Desperately trying to focus
Through blurred vision
Trying to find the answer
The harder I try to focus
The more distant the answer becomes

An enduring mystery

2007-09-07T23:31:00.000+08:00

Like a fading firelight
The sudden starburst quickly dissipates
The light is dying

Feeling slighted...

2007-09-07T00:01:00.000+08:00

It is time for me to let go
To trust my inner voice
Open my mind to the wonders around me
Cast away my fears and doubts

Complications are illusions

2007-09-04T23:18:00.000+08:00

The dark cloud descends once again
Screaming silently in the night
I'm clueless as to what is happening
Where do I go from here?

A seemingly endless struggle

2007-09-01T23:12:00.000+08:00

Lost in the darkness
Can't find my way out
I'm trapped inside
The shadow of doubt

I keep falling and falling
I'm afraid there's no end
It'll only get worse

It's tearing me up inside
Killing me softly
Hurting me deeply

It hurts so much

2007-08-31T23:50:00.000+08:00

There is a fear growing inside
It spreads through me like a flame
How will this end?

Scared of the unknown

2007-08-30T20:06:00.000+08:00

Hours, minutes and seconds
Waiting...

2007-08-28T00:00:00.001+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday, Princess =p
May all your wishes come true!
Stay happy and smile always =)

2007-08-27T09:58:00.000+08:00

I can't see the light in the shade
Everything happy and good fades
When it's done and gone
I am left looking back
At what was and can never be again

My mind is wandering
Sitting, pondering what might have been
And what went wrong ...

My mind is a thousand miles away

2007-08-12T22:08:00.000+08:00

I seems to be lagging behind
Simply way behind time
PANIC

2007-08-06T19:49:00.000+08:00

I have yet to finish my part
I am a good for nothing
I am simply

USELESS

2007-08-04T21:17:00.000+08:00

Argh! I am feeling useless
Perhaps I am a burden to my group

2007-08-01T23:51:00.000+08:00

It is hard to breathe holding these feelings inside
I would like to know how not to hide
See all that is in my heart
These feelings that I feel

'flash' or 'shake' :)

2007-07-24T20:08:00.000+08:00

In that spilt second
I should have been knocked down by the bus
I wanted so much to DIE

2007-07-21T19:57:00.000+08:00

I am a total failure
I'll be better off DEAD

2007-07-18T20:24:00.000+08:00

Tears fall as I tear myself apart
I know that I am losing it...